I felt simultaneously unsettled and intrigued by Kirsten Johnson’s presentation. As she walked down the aisle with her bright orange shoes and fox-emblazoned jacket, I knew something different was in store for us. When she demanded that the class spout out words to describe her – her appearance, her character, her personality – the word “eccentric” popped to mind, yet I did not feel like speaking out. KJ presented a very boisterous and invasive demeanor and I felt more comfortable listening to her and studying what she had to say before participating.
KJ roamed about the room, asking questions to random students, and discovering interesting tidbits of information that “hooked” her; pulling her into their stories; starting the thread of a relationship between them, albeit however brief. As she went on about her creative process, it became clear to me that she was the camera. She explored the room as if she would want her lens to – zoom in, pan right, tilt left, adjust focus between the “characters” of the lecture hall. As a documentary filmmaker, her stories are comprised of people and their environment. By building a genuine rapport with a person she then is able to dig deep into who they are, their interests, and extract a piece of them worth exploring in her work. Something interesting, beautiful, damaging, weird.
The idea of her plopping down next to me and asking questions was a bit mortifying. I did not relish the idea of being put on the spot like that, but I understood it. As a filmmaker, she wants to create her story her own way. She’s not shy, she’ll be in your face if she has to, but she is also not rude. She simply knows what she wants and what she has to do in order to get it. She’ll lie in the dirt to get her low angle shot of the carrots. She’ll stand for hours to wait for the wind to blow a flag into frame. She is dedicated to her vision and her craft. I can absolutely respect that. It was eye-opening to see how such a wild personality could create such a quiet film such as The Above. That such beautiful subtlety bloomed from her adventurous and candid spirit.
Personally, I wish to create feature films, but I can see myself taking a piece of KJ’s philosophy with me to my work. We need to be bold, ask questions, get down and dirty, and realize that we do have the time to create what we want. It took her 25 years to create Cameraperson, and the two minutes we stared into each other’s eyes for felt like an eternity, but it goes to show that time is subjective. It depends on the person, and it changes depending on how you decide to use it. There is no time to be scared of what you long to create.